Tell me this is what normal people feel. This is what they live everyday, every minute of their existence. This feeling of... Nothingness. I think this is what a practical person would say an adult life feels like. Trudging through the minutes, hours, days... feeling wasted.
Well, don't get me wrong. I'm sure I know how to behave by now, to convey feelings. It's simple really.
Case 1. When You Are With Family- Stretch facial muscles till lips join into a straight line. Purse above mentioned lips into an upward curve. This is called a Smile. Don't show teeth.
Case 2. When You Are With Friends (Guys)- Shove left hand in pocket. Swing phone from right palm casually. Let eyes graze over the screen every 15 mins. Broaden mouth to part lips and show teeth. This is called a Grin.
Case 3. When You Are With Friends (Girls)- *Everyone Starts Discussing Their Love Life* Smile, as in Case 1. Put a suddenly vibrating phone to your left ear and excuse yourself. Run.
Case 4. When A Guy/Girl Hugs You (Friendly)- Don't. Look. Up. Let left and right arms not do anything.
Case 5. When A Guy Hugs You (Romantically)- Close eyes. Breathe Even. Do NOT think about how many bluebirds flew around Tom's head when Jerry hit him with that broomstick last night. Bring left palm up to Guy's chest slowly. Don't shove.
See?
Feelings are way over rated anyway. It's all in the gestures. You know all the names - Happiness, Politeness, Fun, Desire, Companionship- the 'dictionary definitions' of it...You know the way to enact it all ... but you know what?
It doesn't mean an effing thing to you.
Because you can't feel it.
You try hard. But the essence of the emotion perpetually evades you.
(Note to self- Must Stop Watching Dexter).
Lord knows what I'd do for a little Sincerity right about now.
And a little Hope.
But then again, A little Hope is a dangerous thing.
I'm probably better off this way.
Some things are better off when they are broken.. like... umm... Noodles.
And that's my cue to end this post right HERE.
Goodnight, Normal People.
Its good to be you.
Well, don't get me wrong. I'm sure I know how to behave by now, to convey feelings. It's simple really.
Case 1. When You Are With Family- Stretch facial muscles till lips join into a straight line. Purse above mentioned lips into an upward curve. This is called a Smile. Don't show teeth.
Case 2. When You Are With Friends (Guys)- Shove left hand in pocket. Swing phone from right palm casually. Let eyes graze over the screen every 15 mins. Broaden mouth to part lips and show teeth. This is called a Grin.
Case 3. When You Are With Friends (Girls)- *Everyone Starts Discussing Their Love Life* Smile, as in Case 1. Put a suddenly vibrating phone to your left ear and excuse yourself. Run.
Case 4. When A Guy/Girl Hugs You (Friendly)- Don't. Look. Up. Let left and right arms not do anything.
Case 5. When A Guy Hugs You (Romantically)- Close eyes. Breathe Even. Do NOT think about how many bluebirds flew around Tom's head when Jerry hit him with that broomstick last night. Bring left palm up to Guy's chest slowly. Don't shove.
See?
Feelings are way over rated anyway. It's all in the gestures. You know all the names - Happiness, Politeness, Fun, Desire, Companionship- the 'dictionary definitions' of it...You know the way to enact it all ... but you know what?
It doesn't mean an effing thing to you.
Because you can't feel it.
You try hard. But the essence of the emotion perpetually evades you.
(Note to self- Must Stop Watching Dexter).
Lord knows what I'd do for a little Sincerity right about now.
And a little Hope.
But then again, A little Hope is a dangerous thing.
I'm probably better off this way.
Some things are better off when they are broken.. like... umm... Noodles.
And that's my cue to end this post right HERE.
Goodnight, Normal People.
Its good to be you.
i waited and i waited and then i waited some more/
ReplyDeletei had decided i would sit here and keep waiting by her closed door/
with rapt attention wrapped in apprehension/
waiting in hope someday she would emerge from her self-created chasm/
I'm glad i waited, now i can say, i was there/
the day she said, today i blossom/
:)
cheers!
:)
ReplyDeleteWell, this is the space I had to come to find you. Found you: Emotionally colorblind and with a "whatever" mood switched on :P
ReplyDeleteNice try ;)