There have been so many times when I have wanted to leave all this and run back to the place I left behind where some loved me but I loved you instead and most hated me for it, but it was enough that I had you and I would do anything to get it back.
There have been so many times when I have wanted to leave this and run back to the place I left behind where some loved me and most hated me but none of that mattered to me because I was too caught up in my misery to care about anything except us.
There have been so many times when I have wanted to leave this and run back to the place I left behind where I felt secure in the knowledge of my failures and they were these scented flames in my life that alternately blinded and burnt me whenever I least expected them.
There have been so many times when I have wanted to leave this and run back -to you, to our love, to what I used to feel when I was with you and what it changed me into.
There have been so many times when I have wanted to remain anonymous while writing a letter to you and slide it under your door but I can't find you anywhere.
There have been so many times when I have wanted to tell you exactly what I feel when you ask me how I am now and whether I am happy in this place.
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Q: What's up? How have you been? How're you liking the place?
A: There have been so many...things up with me these days!!! Just LOVE the city!! Really busy! - With class and assignments and shit like that. Sorry for the late reply. Facebook chat is a bitch!! Catch you later!
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Observation- Exclamation Marks lie.
Or the no. of exclamation marks present after a statement is proportional to the intensity of lie being spoken through it?
ReplyDeleteJust an observation.
But, Facebook chat can be really a bitch sometimes. Nothing false about that ;)
Glad you agree!
ReplyDeletenice... but could be better. I know you have it in you to make it better. Don't be hasty with your writings. Sometimes its about the need, the urgency to finish what you started and sometimes it has to be lingering...like when something still 'is' even when it 'has been' read :)
ReplyDeletemake it a blend of both
makes sense?
cheers!
cyril
This was typed simultaneously, as the conversation. Somehow Real life can never measure up to art. :)
ReplyDeletegladly it doesn't even need to :)
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